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The cancer diagnosis felt like the ultimate betrayal. I was a healthy, active, middle-aged woman who seldom got sick. In the summer of 2020, I learned I had cancer in my lungs though I鈥檇 never smoked a day in my life.

Nothing had prepared me for this.

I instinctively began thinking through all the things I felt I would no longer be able to do on this new path suddenly laid out before me: Hiking was near the top of that list.

In the 16 years that I鈥檝e lived in Seattle, I have discovered an unquenchable passion for the outdoors and feel lucky to live in a place surrounded by such natural beauty. Mount Rainier, with its year-round snowcap, sits majestic from almost any route I take to drive home.

While my diagnosis limits the intensity of my outdoor activity, it doesn鈥檛 prevent me from engaging in it.

My husband, Steve, and I used to spend nearly every Sunday hiking some of the gnarliest peaks in the Olympic and Cascade ranges, like Bandera, Granite, Thorp mountains, the Enchantments. We鈥檇 biked trails that weaved through dense forests or meandered through open fields, paddled mountain lakes in our canoe, and camped in places like the Hoh Rainforest on the Olympic Peninsula. Exploring nature always felt like magic medicine.

All that now suddenly seemed lost.

In the months following my diagnosis, I鈥檇 scroll through stunning mountain views from local hiking groups in my Facebook feed with a sense of desperate longing. But I also noticed something else: posts of hikes with less elevation鈥攕ome with views just as striking. In my old life, we鈥檇 bypass these flat trails at the base of mountains or paths that snaked alongside rivers, thinking they were best left to families with young children or people out for a stroll. Now with a body weakened by chemotherapy, those have become my new obsession.

In this new life, I鈥檝e come to understand that while my diagnosis limits the intensity of my outdoor activity, it doesn鈥檛 prevent me from engaging in it. As a way of staying close to home amid the pandemic, Steve and I had started to discover and add 1- to 3-mile treks, with little to no elevation gain, to our hiking mix. These less intense hikes remind me of how much I missed as I was grinding away to reach the summit of some big mountain, like the different ecosystems that exist at lower elevations or the numerous stories that you can learn about a region from interpretative trails.

I鈥檓 in an endless battle with my body to get up, to move, to go.

Many are nestled in residential neighborhoods鈥攍ike the one just a block from our house where we take evening walks with our dog. Turns out I鈥檇 been doing what I loved all along, just not at the same scale.

Chemotherapy is like a blanket of fatigue. I have metastatic cancer of unknown origin in my lungs and liver that behaves and is being treated like colon cancer. The fatigue I feel from the treatment is unrelated to any level of physical activity and does not really improve鈥攅ven with rest. Chemo treatment leaves me with less energy to spend because my body is working to generate energy to metabolize the drugs. I am constantly fighting the urge to lie down.

That means that with any activity鈥攆rom simply doing the dishes to going for a hike鈥擨鈥檓 in an endless battle with my body to get up, to move, to go.

But I know remaining active during this time is important. A growing body of research supports the theory that , including hiking, can help reduce  for cancer patients and that regular exercise that increases the heart rate can also help prevent cancer or lower the risk of it returning.

鈥淚t鈥檚 expected and normal to lose both strength and aerobic fitness with cancer and its treatment,鈥� said Dr. David S. Zucker, a cancer rehabilitation physiatrist at  in Seattle, where I鈥檓 a patient. Rest is just as important as physical activity, he says. Too much of either can amplify fatigue. So, he recommends finding a balance to avoid too much rest but also overtraining.

I鈥檝e come to appreciate this different way of exploring and enjoying nature.

With chemotherapy, he says, a person鈥檚 emotional, behavioral, and physical capacities change, though we may not always be attuned to that. 鈥淭here鈥檚 an association between what the mind remembers and would like to think it should do and what the body can actually do,鈥� Zucker said.

Chemotherapy leaves you with a different body, 鈥渁 new body, really, that has a different way of functioning,鈥� Zucker adds.

For inspiration, he shares the story of a patient named Phil. An outdoorsman who longed to hike the , a 500-mile ancient pilgrimage route across Spain, Phil鈥檚 dreams appeared stymied by a stage 4 cancer diagnosis.

So, he recreated his own Camino on 10 acres in his backyard on Washington鈥檚 Vashon Island. With each lap, he would plot his progress on the Santiago map, while Zucker trained and guided him. He eventually got a break from chemo treatment long enough to make the trip to Spain. His story is told in the documentary .

But you don鈥檛 have to replicate Phil鈥檚 effort to engage in the outdoors. Here in Washington state, for example, the , a member-driven group that fosters the stewardship of trails and public lands, lists over 1,700 low-to-no elevation gain trails across the state, ranging from paved to rugged. Many are .

Kindra Ramos, a spokeswoman for the group, says often just taking time to focus on the small wonders of nature can make a hike worthwhile. 鈥淲hen I need to get out but am not feeling like I have much energy, I like to pick short loops that I can do a second time if I am still feeling good after the first go around,鈥� she said.

Other times, just walking around the streets of your neighborhood can be enough.

I still get nostalgic for the big peaks, especially when I see the jaw-dropping pictures on social media. But I now recognize that hiking exists along a continuum鈥攆rom scaling peaks thousands of feet high to the gentle walks through neighborhood parks. And in this post-diagnosis reality, I鈥檝e come to appreciate this different way of exploring and enjoying nature that doesn鈥檛 involve a big scramble to the top.

Some Hiking Tips

In addition to finding lower elevation hikes, here are some other things I鈥檝e learned from my own experience of hiking through fatigue.

Prioritize stability. Hiking with trekking poles can give you an added level of security on uneven terrain. Although Steve always used them, I never did, even on our big hikes, because I always felt like they slowed me down. Now, I consider them if our hike includes any form of elevation gain at all.

Make sure you have proper gear鈥攕hoes, socks, and jacket. (These  and  checklists from Expert Advice can be helpful resources.) Some chemotherapy treatments, like mine, can lead to patients feeling cold all the time. Last fall, we rented a recreational vehicle for a camping trip to Cape Disappointment, the point on Washington鈥檚 coast where the Columbia River meets the Pacific Ocean. Tent camping in November was out of the question, given the cold and wet conditions.

It was my first time camping in an RV, and I loved the idea of coming back at the end of a day of hiking to a warm, dry space with heat, running water, and a working kitchen. Hiking around Cape Disappointment, as with other hikes we do in the cold, I wore heated gloves. I鈥檇 been using the e-gloves even before I began chemo because of . Now they鈥檝e become an essential part of my kit.

Remember that hiking is a journey. Take breaks before reaching the point where you鈥檝e become desperate for one and be honest with your hiking partner about what your limitations are. Let your body guide you on how far and fast you go and know when it鈥檚 best to turn around.

Editor鈥檚 note: This story was updated at 10:03 a.m. on July 27, 2021 after Lornet got married, to reflect that Steve is now Lornet鈥檚 husband rather than her partner.

This story originally appeared in听and is republished here with permission.